Laptop

akhirnyaaa... i got my laptop!! Means, i can finally do my assignmnetss i mean my tons of assignments peacefully. And i can now update my blog!! and also i can finally get in touch with the outside world. hehe. This weeks is the most hectic ones. With assignments, unprepared presentations, and with the sizzling wether. Trust me, it was fulls of tense and stress and u need some patience and coolness in you. Hehe. There are still few lists of my undone assignments and the due is on next week. Good luck, didie!

Crazy Nights

Like in a quote says : Rules are made to be broken, right? That is how it goes. Yesterday was a hell lots of fun and craziest night. OK, first, Sue ajak Hani went out to have some puffs and Eqa and me followedtogether and we went to 7 Eleven. Out of nowhere, tbe2 kena saman la pulakk kan. Cibai punye polis betina. Badan dah lah gemok cam tong gas, ayat taknak kasar lakk, kan. Fom last sem we were using that 'No right turn' way, and to make it happen, yesterday kena saman lakk. We waited for nearly an hour fer that coz of that police bitches doesnt have the summon book.Dah tau nak saman, awat hang tak bawak buku saman. Nak suro kitrg suap kerrrr? Suck my dick. If i have one la kann. Then, after that thing has settled, Sue came out with this idea of going to KL. At first we were in 50 - 50 mode since masing2 muka cam basi, Eqa tak bwk hp, me n Sue last mandi kul 8 pagi, Hani tak bwk make up die. And guess wat? All of us just brought our purse and our matrix card. But then again, like i said, staying on weekends in Lendu is like losing ur virginity to someone who is such a sore loser. Yerp, we made our way to KL and had strawberry shisha at Ampang. Then, we went to Sue's room and boyfriend picked me there and we had shisha again but different flavo. I had apple mint shisha with boyfriend. It was as good as Andalus but the environment is so so compare to Andalus. But being with him is what matters. I did not sleep the whole day and we went to Lendu at 6 in the morning. Once there, i brushed my teeth and get ready to PPKP. The hell of the hell. I was so not in the mood and my head is tipsy and my throats is sore. Thank god, daddy came and fetch me and brought me home. We wanted to watch Dark Night but it was full even the midnigth show. So, we end up eating pizza and McD and watched Long Khong 2 at home.

4 ppl that u meet in heaven

Whom I am looking forward to meet :-

a)Ayah and Mama

b)Syafiq Sayang

c)Sheeda Dot

d)Eka Nazhwa

p.s : I miss you peeps, badly... U guys mean a lot to me! :)

Bad Dreamsss

i had a really bad dream last night and i felt so terribly terrible. OK, reality check. Before I went to bed, i had this minor weezy fought with him. And as guilty as i felt, I called him to say SORRY. It was my stupid fault. After everything has settled, i had this dream. A dream that made me cry in my sleep. A dream that make me realised how important of him to me. A dream that will change everything. A dream that occured to be unreal, and a dream that made me live in fear. Yerp, it was a very bad nightmare. Him, dead. Of liver cancer. Nope, he doesnt have any cancer but i was aware. All of dreams, why would it be cancer? I got freaked out. Once awake, I was crying and i srtaight called him to wake him up. I called him so many times, and he did not answer. Hmm, he is still sleeping i guess. But then again i received a message from him saying 'i love you' and i felt so much better then. I started sending him weird messages bout promise me that he wont leave me. And he said Of Course. I felt so much better. I told him bout the dreams. Just to make sure that it was unreal. And it wasnt. I love you, baby!! I will always do. <33

Dance till u drop

As usual, Me and Sue were late for 'who are you' class. We were like soo cool about it and was OK with it. Once in class, masuk je,and straight pergi belakang punya seat and sit quietly. He was merepeking some shits and made us feel like we were in standard 6. Then taktentu pasal dia marah aku, sue and hani sebab bawak masuk beg dalam lab. ugh!Hellooooooo cam aku nak jer pc buruk tue. and kalau aku nak curik pon muat pulak kann masuk dalam handbag aku. Gle annoying sial.

OKlah, then we went for lunch and Hani dropped my new phone. Jealous ke dgn hp aku Hani?LOL. Then, went to our room. Bored, I blast my phone with my favourite music and strated to jiggy on my bed. Then, aku tak tahan and terus jer menari tanpa menghiraukan Sue yang sedang melalak, Eqa yang sedang seronok tidur, dan hani yang sedan online. Tbe2 jer Sue dengan tak bagi salamnyer join aku pnye private party! ahahaha!! Kitrg dance gle cam haram jadah jer. Ku pon ape lagi, orang kate 'two's a company' kan. so we rocked our booty just like we always did in club. Memang satu baju basah ah. I tink that's the best exercise ever before sex. ahahaha. Ok, then dgn glenyer, kitrg shake2 hp eqa coz hp dier byk lagu remixes n we changes slot and made the moves. Eqa ketawa gle tgk and Hani yng tengah online pon leh stop and tgk. Eqa yg tgh tdo leh terbgn lak. ahaha. Plg tak boleh blah is when we were trying to do ballet. Mmg masing2 kaki kaku sialll! ahaha. Gle gampang punyer kelakar. Pastu ala2kat club la kan joget smbil pgg botol beer. Tpi we do it in halal way n ktrg pgg botol mineral jer jenama Surfken instead of Heineken. LOL!

Then, g pasar malam and makan. Aku bli mee tapi tak habis ponn. Kepenatan, dan kekenyangan aku baring atas tilam Sue and tertido sampai kul 9. Thanks to bf fer waking me up. Sekarang ni aku tgh fikir camner nak tdo mlam kang sbb aku dah tdo ptg td. Haruslah super saver kan u olz??

Happiness

I'm happy when I'm with him,
I'm happy when I'm around him,
I'm happy whenever he whispers 'I love you',
I'm happy when he hugs me from the back,
I'm happy when he kisses me tenderly,
I'm happy to see him eat,
I'm happy when he critics bout my outfit,
well, now i know that my boyfreind can be my honest fashion advisor,
I'm happy when we both holding hands,
I'm happy when he drove me wothout directions,
I'm happy to see him smiling,
I'm happy to hear his laughter,
I'm happy when I've got a text from him,
I'm happy when he calls,
I'm happy when he spoke my name's',
I'm happy when he captures himself with my cam phone,
I'm happy to see him 'pujuking' me,
I'm happy to see him freak out when im mad,
I'm happy when he treated me lavishly,
I'm happy when he says OK in everything I say,
I'm happy when we chill together,
I'm happy when we get turn on,
I'm happy when there's only two of us in a place,
I'm happy when he makes me feel so much good
Andd...
I' m happy when we both happy!

I love you, cupcake!

Vintage Point

Ugh, baju color vintage?? It's a trend now. Tapi bf keep on kutuking me coz d color is lusuh and tak menyerlah. He even said if i attend to a party, eventhough i look good with fancy make up and fancy heels, I still gonna be invisible coz of the color vintage cant attract the crowds. Banyakk ah u!!!

OH DAMNN!! ticket bus dah habis u olzz!! How am i suppose to go back to Melaka esokk???
HAAAA!!!!!

PuduFuckya!

Phewww.. Finalyy, i get to online using my very own network in my very own new handphone. I tought I cant use my broadband anymore but i was so wrongg..
Today, i got up late and missed my 8.30am class. And it has been twice in a row i missed the friday's class. Who are you sure gonna screw me up next Tuesday. Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!
Annddddd I stopped at Pudu's station and bf picked me up. And he was 30 minutes late. I was so terrific and scared coz there's a lot of scary peeps there. Toooooo many! And the coverage in Pudu is like fuck! Grr! I was sooooo mad with him untill i was crying right after i got in his car. I was pissed and demented at the same time. Butt, It was just for few minutes and we were as bright as before. Alaaa, marah 5 minit jer kan sayangg? Tulah u sayang sangat kat i ann? HAHAHA. Love u too!

Esok, we might be going out again for a movie and some shopping.! I wanna shop for a handbag and makn kat Bangsar. As usual, I have to plan for everything and he has to follow and make the plan runs smoothly. That's wat he admiring. Anyways, I need to call him. Toodlooo!!

xoxo!

What went wrong??

Whatever, I hate to say it but i deleted it for the sake of i love you. I still hate wat u just did, tryind to defend her but whatever.

Love

Me loving Sue
Me loving Bf
Sue loving Dd

Besties

Demam Cinta. Ugh!

I wasn't feeling well today. Been sneezing all the time. Well, not exactly all the time but yeah i sneezed a lot today. And the cause? I am having my minor flu. Dunno why. Maybe because yesterday was kinda cold and i did not comfort myself with my blanket. That's why. I ate like a slob and like a piglet these days. Cummon, I don't want to gain any weight after i tried so hard in losing weight for 3 months and i only managed to lose 4 kgs. What the hell? So, tomorrow i am planing to puasa, in terms to lose weight and gaining some pahala. hehehe. Sue called me crazy because I am so deeply in love with my boyfriend. Aku angau tgk pix2 dia kat myspace and i was like "omg!!handsomenyeee die, aku cam jatuh cinta kat dier." ahaha. I already have him with me in my heart but when looking at his pictures, I feel like I wan him and I fall for him. Arghh, it's hard to explain how i felt. But, I know u unferstand. :)

Anndddddd, I am adoring my purple handphone. Classmates, Jangan jealous!!
Peace out!

Love it baby

Saturday was a happiest day. Dad bought for me a new handphone, Purple color.Sony Ericsson K770i. Hahaha. And Saturday was a happiest day for me too coz i feel so in love with my boyfriend. and mummy and daddy got a new handphone too. We had our gadget shopping on Saturday. Tak sia2 aku balik. haha.

What a perfect date

If u ever listen to The right man by Christina Aguilera, I will say that the song is definitely for me. Yerp, finally i have found one. My very right man, Syafiq. For the million times, we've been On and Off with each other for god noes how many times break ups and make ups, and, finally i am here, right beside him, cuddling each other and having a really, really good time. Awww, baby. I am enjoying this ride and i wanna ride more, as it really 'adventurous' and i love adventures if u know what i'm saying.

Let me put it in a clear water on how was it going and what was i turn to when he was away, for effing six months. I may be a bitch of the month or player of the month. U decide. I had like three not so boyfriend or better i call it three bastards in six months. Why did i do that? Well, probably because I was bored and It was my one of few ways that i had in mind on how am i suppose to forget him because I know deep down I can't and i couldn't. Honestly, I did not enjoyed wat i was doing with the guys that i dated when he wasn't there with me. I cant even get turn on and i can't even like them. Not a tiny little penny. Ugh. They tried to kiss me and I tried to kiss them but i can't. Gross, when u say it real loud. I was undefined and uncivilised and emotionally unstable when he was away and it was a very long time, and it was like ermm 6 months?? I was dying waiting and dying to see him and called him. Eventually, i sent him some humialating messages to him and unfortunately his 'new girlfren' read it and must have deleted it. What a pathetic loser. And she was not even his gf. Baru nak jadi jadi ah. Lol2. But it's ok she deserves wat she deserve. But it was then, before he met me again and before he called me to meet me. And now he is all mine. Forever mine. I love you.

Future Sound

Have u ever feel the same as I do? Falling in love for the uncountable times with the same person for years and although sometimes you feel sucks at this love thingy wtih ur person but the love never fades away. You love him as much as the first time u guys were meant to be with each other. And how many ups and downs with each other, but still u love him even more. Have u? I am! I love him so much. He is my candle that lightens up my darkness. He lits me up with his shine and he makes me feel so good by being there for me through thick and thins. Sometimes i felt so unfair for him. I made him crazy in love with me and then, i ignore him and make him crazy by losing me. I don't know how many times we've been together and how many break ups we had face. But, somehow I still love him as much as i love my soul. He is my choc top for my cake that i can't resist because he is so tempting and i get fascinated into him. Even how bad he is in time management or how bad he is in directions, sometimes, that was why i am still craving for him and gets me going. I love his Escada smell and I love his hair. I love how good he is in touching and kissing me, and nevertheless, i love how good he is at making me feel loved and appreciated.

To my Baby,
You know how much i love u and i know u are sincere being with me. I know I acted funny at times and being a pest, but somehow i was just being the centre of attention with you. I need your attention and I need you all the time. I don't crave for a hot sex to love you forever but I am craving for your sensual touch and your attention. I love you. I love you. I love you so much.

Who Are You?

Monday was hectic. Imagine lah kan, my class is from 2.30PM right up till 10pm. Grrr. Classes was fine except for my BEL260 lecturer. He's old and fugly and he blabs a lot. Like A LOTT!!! He boasted about how English is so important in his family. He was like "My whole family watched only news and movies in English". I was like errr what the fuck??? Do we ask? No, grandpa! I was so freeging hungry and he still have lots of time to tell something that i don't even care! After class me and some frends went for our makan and i am craving for 'burger Dadah". Unfortunately, Burger Dadah dah habis dah. So i had Fun Fries. Dalam bilik, memekak with roomates, bergayut ngan boyfriend and tido!!!

Today's (Tuesday) class is at 11.30am. Me and few gf's were late and that old fart, (yes, we gonna survive with him three days in a row!) He complained about how he doesnt wan to get blame by his students stupidity in signing student's attendance. Lame gilerrr, kann? And he calls Sue stupid and dumb just because a tiny mistake. Giler ah. Sebab budak tue salah tulis jer kottt! After classes, i went to Pasar Malam or Pasar Gesel called by Madam Raha, and ate burger and choc shake. Called boyfriend and he was sooo busy with my cousin for snooker. Grrrrr!! Fine lah, go shake that snooker balls. :( I've been left out by him today. Gile sedih u olz. Anyways, its kinda windy and gloomy here. And i feel like sleeping. So, take care!

Lone Ranger

What a lonely night. It has four rooms, four beds and four chairs in my hostel's room but there's only one chair and one bed that is ocuppy now. Yerp, i am all alone now. I dunno where the hell Dayah went, Eqa is going back here tomorrow coz her class starts at 2.30pm, and Sue is out with her boyfriend for dinner. She asked if i wanna follow her, but i said no because i wanna avoid dinner. Dinner can make u go fat. When friends wasn't around, then what about my boyfreind? He's playing futsal la pulakk sekarang. I am so lonely. Where is everybody? Helloooo, i am talking with my own voice????

Whatever, i bought new flat today! Yipppie. I am okay already. Last night was a lil bit too fucked up but not untill i get a new flat from Nose. Daddy bought for me today at Sungei Wang. It was so packe there. And it was surrounded my full of Jinjangs and shufflers. They had this competition going on for the shufflers. Semua cam adik2 jerrr aku tengokk. Daddy gets so excited and he shuffled everywhere he want to. Pretend like he knows la. Padahal setakat hentak2 kaki bole ah ayah tue. gaga. Lagi2 he wanna show off his new Crocs. Plg latest katenye Haiyohh. Gle ah, ayah!

Boyfriend is gonna call me at 11 something before he head to Bangi. And i gotta wait. He starts my day and i wanna end my day with him and his laughter. That is my Heramine and my pills.

P.P.S/ U can lose few thousands of calories with 30 minutes of hot sex. That' the fact. So, yeah! Let's do sex. Errrrrr?? *confuse*

Anti depress pill

i am so depressed, with no reason........

I need my lively coccaine and my weed...

Coz he makes me happy and makes me fly high with my invisible wings,..

And he is my boyfriend....

He makes me feel great...

Boyfriend, I need your sensual touch and moves...

Deal with it, peep!

I'm finally here in Selangor. SCREEAAAAAMMMMM!!! i went back with Hani then we head off to Sg. Wang coz she wanted to buy new handphone and she bought. Then went to MNG and sale gle. Ohyeah btw, today is 5th July meaninggggg Mega Sales starts til somewhere in September. I gotta save some money to shop at the end of this month. How?? I gotta cut my food allowance and start saving RM200 this month coz i wanna buy new handbag! Can't wait, can't wait!

Then, boyfriend sent me home safely and i missed him already. But,whatever love need sacrifice aite.. Errr watever didie! Yea, u can say whatever but to me it's true. Sometimes i get annoyed with love but most of the time i am freegingg happy with it. To have a perfect boyfriend with me and who cares for me is more than enough. But i don'tknow how long can i survive. I mean,how long can i live in this moment like how i am living now? I noe i sucks at being a good partner but it's the way i am. I ain't know how to express my feeling to him nor keeping and using lovey dovey words. But, deep down i love him so much and i don't wanna hurt him. I wish he understand my fugly attitude. Iknow he get stressed and bored with my uncontrollable attitude and noise, but like i said earlier; that is who i am, ur girlfriend. U can't expect much from me, baby. Despite the expectation, i love u so. Although u hate me silently or bitching bout me in ur heart, i wont care much coz i'm in love with u. I may be hard outside but i am supersoft like a candy floss inside. i don show it but i will suffer it on my own. If u know me well, then u may know by my look or else go get my dictionary. But, i am so complicated. I get angry for no reason and i get moody and feeling hell of down suddenly. Mood swing? Well maybe. Mind me, and ignore. I will be ok the next day itself. Ignorance is how i cope my life's path. Dealing with me for nearly 3 years is like taking an intense care of a baby. But u manage to do it untill now. U may get bored with me and u may wan't to ignore me, but i don't think u will. Why? Confidently, u love me more than i am.

I love u, all i need is for u to trust me and stand with my problematic defensive attitude.

Dilemma Issue

yesterday night in my room was all lex lex jer. Nothing special except for my 2 friends with me and it makes me feel better. All i was doing was online and rotting like hell and forcing my boyfriend to reply my messages. I slept with no blanket with me and with my boxer short was freezing like as if i was in the igloo house. But thank god, my cousin came and gave me my blanket. So i can sleep soundly tonight :) But, the thing is i did not plan to sleep in Lendu tonight. I wanted to sleep elsewhere but not Lendu. Puhleez! So, i suppose i gotta sleep at my friend's place or my boyfriend's or my parent's. Right? Spending my weekend in a hostel room is like losing my virginity to someone that i hate the most and that i will regret it the hell of my life. And i wanna lose it to someone that i love the most so that i will not regret it myself. Ok, mengarut pulak aku kan. Daddy is not gonna be at home today so i doubt it wether my mommy is gonna be at home also. And i called my boyfriend uncountable time and he did not answer my call and i calledhim again and his phone was off. :( Bateri kongg la tue. Takpelah sayang, i love u still.




6..5..4..3..2..1..KL here i comee!

Not So Tempting

I cant seem to have any idea on how 2 months passes like 2 days. I feel like it was just yesteday i packed all my stuff at Dang Anum's block and get the hell out from that hell of the shit block leaving all the stupid seniors and mothereffing MT block. And today, i repacked my stuff back to Melaka, just the same thing, but now i am staying at the different block which i applied together with my 3 friends and alhamdulillah we got to stay at the same room together. So, meaning more lesbos things is going to happen, kan? Especially sue who is staying with me and she adore my ass and she secretly admires it kan sue? *wink* OK, masuk lak Eqa yang ketawa cam satu Melaka nak dgr, lagilah havoc. But i feel so sorry with my senior who stay with us. For sure she's gonna get tense with our noises! Deal with it, roomate!

I reached Uitm around 2.30pm, n registered. And i saw my girlfriends and they looked so gorgeous with the new hair la, new figure la, tis and that. N i feel like im the fattest of all. Hehe. Had my lunch with them at KFC and we were cracking our head with the noise. Once back to Melaka, get in my room and unpacked all the stuff. Gila banyak sialll!!!!!

I'm gonna miss my mummy and me daddy. I pity my mum coz she gonna stay alone if dad went outstation fer work purpose. Hurmm its ok mummy u can call me anytime and i can wait till u sleep. I love u mummy! I really do!


To Sue, I miss u too, Biatch!

Get Physical

i love every moments i had with u. In the car, ur house, the park, everywhere!

Even if the place is as horrible as hell, i still enjoys it with u.

Because...

U r my sugar floss that forever sweet and tempting. n I Love You So Much!

I love ur smile, as it makes me melt, dangg u!

I am so glad to have u, again and again!

last 2 1/2 years was full of undefined n hanging memories. But now as things gets more defined , we make it through the best of us!!

Goodbye Mistakes, and Hello Love!!