my Hero, My Dad

its been 2 weeks since i met my dad. He went outstation for some work. N, tis is d longest week for me. I miss him soo much. He was so busy working and im so busy spending his money. Im sorry daddy. I dreamt of him last night, he came and see me. I wore his shirt yesterday night as my pyjama. The way i miss him is like as if he doesnt exist anymore. No, no, hes still with me and healthy. It just dat i miss him so much. H e is d most lovable person in my life n he is my number ONE! I wonder how would i turn to if he no longer with me.. (TOUCH WOOD). Daddy, pls come home early. I cant wait unill Sunday! :(


*I MISS YOU*

dieting

guess i should stop taking carbs n start with lots of grains n veges.
n lack of sleep can make u fat!! i just knew it..
..and theres NO WAY sodas can ever get in my body..
u r wat u eat...


jom tdo..aku dah ngantok!

CHOICES...

Three types of guys dat i will NEVER date :-

a)Cheap boys who need his gul to pay for everything
b)Bastards who two timing his gul n acted so sweet infront
c)Fuckers who prefer 'Fuck n Go'

Yeah, i will never ever date these guys. OK, i didnt expect my guy to pay for everything but at least, please pay for something. I wont mind paying for meals once a while but not EVERYTIME we hang out. I dont mind lending him some money but PAY back, please!!! I borrowed u NOT give u, dude. Just so if im rich, i wont be giving u money lavishly. Please considerate. My money is for me spending n indulge myself and its NOT for cheap type like u. No, thank you, please. To all bastards, please stay away frm me, don talk to me n don approach me if u want me more than a friend. Why? I dont deserve a guy like u. Only bitches need bastards. I am no BITCHES so yeah i don need bastards to share my other half. And i don wanna label as a BITCH coz dating u and i dont wanna be a SECOND CHOICE. I wanna be first coz i alwis be FIRST. To fuckers, i don need free sex from u. I can get a healthy, good dick, NOT the rusty one. I don need u to pleasure me then forget bout everything. U've been fucking too many girls and i don wanna get some eeky n yuckie disease. Ewwwwww.... thats y i hate sharing. They say, sharing is caring but as for me sharing is for desperates. Im not a SEX slave n i don need SEX to fullfill my life. Go get any SLUTS. Only them suits u well.

Bella Noche

Just before i hit the bed:-

u will never get to read a guy's mind.

time heals?

dear love,

i dont know what n where went wrong.. i don feel anything towards you.. I use to love u, but since whatever shits happened makes me dont even care anymore. I use to adore u so much, but now.. i learnt tat u are not important to me anymore. I've been thru thick n thin with u since i was younger n wiser now.. I guess u r on my side as i grew bigger, but im wrong. u r avoiding me n u r not on my side. I HATE YOU, LOVE! But lessons taught :- Never get in relationsiop seriously if ur NOT ready n if the bond is still too early. Yeah, i totally agree with it... Im very much tired of short relationship n looking forward for long n stabil relationship with full of love n trust.. im still looking for my Mr. Right. Its the heart that matters most. I hate hanging relationship.. N torturing relationship n also Fuck n Go. That is SOOOO not me!!
Fuck it, fuck u, n fuck everything about us!! i DONT need u to accomplish my life, lah.
confront me, say 'I DON NEED U' in front of my face if u really think so. Im not a toy fer u to drag here n there, im not ur person, im not a Bitch who u can kiss n go, im not ur football game, im not a GUL with no feeling. Dude, im a human too, n i need someone beside me. i DONT hate u, i will NEVER hate u, i mean we were good before this, its just not the time yet, i guess.. I MISS YOU, LOVE.



give me some soul!

Linear Equalisation

Linear Equalisation :-

L = LOVE + LIES

I.L.O.V.E.Y.O.U. IS 8 LETTERS

SO IS

B.U.L.L.S.H.I.T

Thanx.

To someone i noe, cousin.

Picture this : u have a partner who happen to be ur boyfren/girlfren. But, in certain circumtances of time, u don feel his/her existence? U still flirt around and being such a bastard with ur couple. N to make it better, u just don feel that SHE/HE is around. Sounds terrible right? I mean wats the point of sitiing in a relationship where there is no colors but black and white and grey..? You blame ur partner for not treating u good, n ignore you n thats the fact ur established to be a bastard.. Sounds funny, boys n girls. Again, picture this : suddenly a bastard/bitch came in ur life, to ruin ur relationship with ur boyfren/girlfren. Not just ruining it but to break it into pieces.. Bastard/bitch seduced u, n u had sex with her. And u don even feel any guilty by doing it, not even a trace. All u were worrying about is just if u started to love him/her more, n that is when he/she is doing the same thing as u were doing. Why would u need a serious relationship when u don feel anything towards ur partner? stop cheating on her/him, i beg! In this case, i tot all you need is to spend a good quality togethr with him/her. As i noe, quality time n a good communication with ur partner is the way to safe it. U will realise it when u start to love him/her more. And that is when the past stikes u with guilty.

**As for me, i am loving my partner with all my life, and please do not doubt bout it baby. And we need more time to indulge this more. I love u.

Domestic Relationship

Finally, one mission accomplished! i coloured my hair light copper. Heee!!
Biasa-biasa jerr.. Atleast there are sum color on my hair rather than my ebony black.
Now, tak nak menghilangkan ke-naturalan rambut lurus, i neeeed to get a curler.. Gotta 'pujuk' ayah fer tat.. Hopefully he agree to spend RM179 fer a curler. Pleeeaassseeeeee!!! OK, nuttin much really happen today. Been reading sociology notes all day, but still i cant seems remember any of the termologies.. Yeah but i remember wat DOMESTIC RELATIONSHIP means.. Meaning is 'unmarried couple who live together in a house, n prctise sexual process', i guess??
well, i wil b leaving to Melaka tomoro, at 9am on Sunday i have paper, then SHOOSSHHHH!! Happy Holiday!!


Just before i go to sleep :- Good night!!

M.I.S.S?

I am in a HUGE hairstyling dilemma here. First, should i chop of my long hair till shoulder lenght? Second, should i highlited it or just color the base, n finally, should i curl it? Ok, friends certainly not agree with me cutting my hair short nor curl it. coz refer to them, they loike my natural straight hair.(tak main straightening, babe!). if i color my hair, i wanna color it purple n pink streaks with black base. BUT, im sure my dad will never let me do tat kind of colors. i mean he wont get mad at me or kick me out frm the house but I bet with my bottom dollars, he will deduct my allowance n call me PEACOCK n haunt me with funny embarassing names. HEHE. Hes a funny man. I LOVE U DADDY! GET HOME SOON!

Finally, its going to be the end of the sem. THANK GODNESS! Which means, 2 months of rotting at home, spending money like a rich bitch, being a anorexic cause by the over spending, working to gain the money back, oversleep due to the massive night out (i have few plans already!), do craving kat kedai AH SEONG for DVD's, n ofcoz more quality time with my family and boyfren. ayayay so much to do, so little time. but first things first, i REALLY NEEEEEED to catch up with my BEST FRIENDS (eeka n sheedot)! imy girls! we gonna rock the town bebeh! its been a while already since i last met them.

In terms of sem break, i can say that im gonna miss the life in d class. Us, classmates acted like a demented ppl in class, dirty back whispers bout lecturers (who else..?u noe who!), those excuses i always use 'lupa buat", "printer rosak", "huh?antar arini ker" its all the memories that i have to keep away fer 2 months. n after that, i will definitely overuse that words. heee! im gonna miss SOCIOLOGY class, definitely! there, the class is a DEWAN, n its BIG. we always sing n do shows after class because it have mic there n talent show starts after class at 7.30pm. i'll be dancing while few frens r singing syok sendiri. im gonna miss MISS RAIHAN. Ur awesome, woman! Ustad too with his direct selling. Yeah how i wish to see KOPI ZIN kat any kedai kopi, one day? Puan Zuraidah with her jokes n mood swings, n ofcoz interesting presentations with friends. Im gonna miss cafe bawah, cafe atas(tomyam didie satu!).. ohyeah, hotspot!(tmpt kite dating ea sayang!?) dating smbl belajar,lah! n ofcoz pak guards yang ske meronda-ronda dgn motornya. im soooo gonna miss my room, see you somedoy C1201. im not gonna see u anymore! but i will remember 'our' memories okenggggg! i have my name at the study table written there "DIDIE SENGAL!" by my seniors. haha. Funny u ppl. n the third shower room where i indulge myself in there. makcik cleaner pon akan dirindui jugak. kerana anda lah tandas ku bersih. terima kasih banyak2.\

Lasty, im much crapping here, like writing a journal! hehe. buat jurnal malas, blog rajin pulakk, kaaann?? i have to go n sleep now. wanna call boyfren first, set my alarm at 4.30am. nk puasa kuruskan bdn! Good night! xo


stop dealing with the shits, keep it gangster loike it always does!

save me?

as the earth is moving, followng its orbit, it triggered me on how does it move, controlling n managing on its own. sumtymes i feel scared knowing n listening n watching at d news bout world crimes, mother nature shows its anger, politic's debate, bloods everywhere around d world.. GOSH! how can u find peace wit tat? or is it going to b d end of d world? No! im not ready to die. theres still few pages of wishlist dat i have not fullfill it yet. i want to contibute summing fer d world, the nature, the country n ofcoz to my lovable family. i want to build a family with cute kids with me, good husband, nice financial, n great marriage. i wanna indulge my life to its fullest with the one tat i love..but, how do i wanna taste all that when d world is not well manage? i mean, pls stop the crime politic ppl..! let the equivalents lead it.. u don need ur status whereas u dunno how to deal wit it n to keep it respectful.. GEEZ! to make it clear, even mother nature were angry n not satisfied wit it too. Proove?? Flood in Kedah, n bencana di Vietnam n it kills 22,500 ppl.! SAD rite..?d world hates the creature in it..n we all have to feel real guilty n we have to do summing bout it.stop manipulate things, n stop provoking shits! its not fer me but fer all the trillion humans out there who surviving with it.

i wanna have a well manage life. everyday i try to keep my path clean jus to make sure i wont end up messing wit it. but, still tiny tiny dirt happens.. tats life i guess. how good u r dealing wit the time n the 'drama', there is sumin tat will ruin it.. its fated n u cant throw it to d drain. n as fer me, no matter where d wind is bringing me, i am up fer everything n i just gotta be ready fer d next painfull rashes..i am living with the 'rashes' now, but i still manage to deal wit it as it never too serious. but in future?? hmm lets just wait n c.. here i am ready with my popcorn n bubble gun to watch the next episode of my life..!!


i aint easy, BITCH!

Survey 1 : do u loike ur body?

Name : Diana

Are you male or female? : Female

How old are you? : 19 tis year

What is your weight : 47kg (fuck i gain 3 kgs!)

Do you think that you are short, tall or average? : i cant own any sport car even if i afford to have one.. now u tell me

What is your height? : ummm 5'3 i guess??

Do you feel that you are skinny, slim, chubby fat or overweight or Muscular? : i have baby fats on ma cheeks, unpleasant belly, flabs everywhere..buruk gle doww!

Do the people of the opisite sex like your body? : HELL-YEAHH!

Whats your favorite food and drink? : tempura fish, mee goreng basah, n teh oh ais laici SATU!

How often do you run, go to the gym weight lift ...? : i gotta stat doing it, next week!

Do you wish you were taller or shorter? : i wish i can be slightly taller

Do you wish you were thinner, fatter or more musclar? : thinner, n tone.

Money..! Money..! Money..!

yeah i admit dat i am sooo craaaazy in love with money. BUT, it seems sooo hard fer me to have all d money that i want except fer my allowance tat daddy gave me every month. *sight* and its not gonna be enuff even if he rise it till few thousands. y? becoz im a BIG no--wait! HUGE spender!! like tis month, since i only have 1 week til sem break, i wish to spend my money to these :-

1: cut my hair short (cool ppl its only shoulder lenght)
2: highlite my hair (purple streaks)
3: upgrade my laptop
4: fix my phone's front cam'
5: get a new jeans
6: hit d gym
7: get HEIRESS perfume
8: manicure & pedicure (seriuosly in need)
9: wax & threading
10: get new purse........
11: ........n still thinking....


how i wish i have all d money to fullfill my need...n, i REAAALLLLYY need to go fer part time this sem breakk..yeeehaaahhh cant wait..!!!

here :- yeah, im a dollars slave..

Bad Dayy!

now, imagine this: u woke up one morning and was feeling doubtful bout certain things dat keeps on rolling in ur mind..?n, to make it worse, its bout summing that u really, reeeaaalllly desperate to noe coz u felt so doubt bout it.. n d whole day u were thinking bout the same thing.. it sucks rite..?fer the past 6 days i be thinking d same shits allll over again.. GOSH! but as today, i started to realise dat, it jus a waste of time thinking bout craps and bins.. Dixie Chicks says "time heals everything...but im still waiting".. yeahh n its sooo TRUE! although i still AGAIN doubt bout it but i can c the potential between it.. i jus go wit d flow n lets jus c where td flow is bringing me..OK cut it out.. today shits happened one after another. i went to Alam Sentral wit parents n bought mummy's brand new Tablet notebook.. its sooooo COOL n fucking hell its freeking lite n graphic gle stylee! when daddy was searching fer parking, he scrathed his car kat dinding parking tue..then the parking ticket went missing sumwhere n he had to freeking pay rm20 fer dat stupid tix..thennnnnn,i lost my rm50 there! GAH!!! I swear im not gonna go to Alam Sebtral anymore...!!

moments i had....

all of sudden, i felt like i had done so many wrongs throughout my 4 years after i got my period..and yet,im still doing it and still living with it..the days i had with my crooks back when i was in school,especially..where we crank in skool and sum uncivilised ppl brought OTARD drinks to class n where they got drunk n im d one who had to play d game, too. no, no i wasnt drinking but i covered them up.. (biasalah kan Vice President terbaikkkk) geeee!! bersubahat amalan SETAN! then as i gets bigger, my crimes were all about boyfriends, my fams, my friends, and MONEYY! tats my thing. i used to have a bf which i doesnt really care off. but, tat was when i was 17. but as i get matured that is where i noe how important to love a guy who is ur man.. i mean, ur d 1 who made d decision so y waste it into the bin rytee..?? and now i am starting to appreciate them more. yeah no kidding! but..urmm..nevermind..lex lex jerrr.then, with my parents. yeah tat was my top-ranking crimes i ever made.. i used to con them to d core, MANN! gosh! wat type of daughter i am. As in money, i conned my dad. but he doesnt realised it at all untill today.. SORRY, DAD! As i get in the University, now i realised how much guilty i felt thruout my life, in here. i missed them so much, till my tears makes it to my subtle cheeks. *ehem* now im waiting fer them to come n take me away frm here to have lunch.i need food n more food..it happens all the time..OHYEAH, i have a baby too..so i seriuosly in neeeeeed of more fooooodd...!!


ur feeling me..?nahh...BULLSHIT!