Distractions
Denial
Demented

Help me, help my relationship. I dont wanna ruin the beautiful couple. I love you.

congrtas

lots of things happen this month. Non of it is my favourites or under my wish lists. I hate October. Lucky today is the last day of October. Hope November shines me better than October did. Well, my friend is seeing someone now. Im jealous! HAHA. But im proud of him. Hopefully this one turn out to be 'the one', not the bitch one, ok honey?? *Pray for you.

Just done with my first paper today. Well, i dont wanna brag but i can say that it's kinda easy. It's only BEL anyways, and im looking forward for CTU paper. Damn!! This month, is the sleeping month. Coz i tend to sleep whenever there's time and couch. And the wether is super duper HOT. I have to wash my hair twice a day, and feel like cutting it short. But, HELL NO! i wont.

I need to rejuvenate myself right after i'm done with my finals. I need to go for some hair treatment, mani and pedi, and facial coz i look faaaaaar older than my 66 years old granny. And i am loving my friends, especially SHEEDA AND SUE! love u girlsssss.

I better off to my book. OOOO no Wait! It's time for gosssip with my guyfriend!!
till then..
xoxo diana

Octoberrrrrr

October is hectic. October is sucks. October makes me weep. October is months with thick n thin.

* Lots of killing assignmnets

* Tests

* Financial Probs

* Mood swings

* Dilemma issues

* Friends n foes

* Good to Bad

* Really HOT fever

* Bad time management

* FINALLLLSSSSS...!!! (30th - 18nov)

See ya, dont wanna be ya.

SEXERCISE

First of all, i kinda hate October and November. Can i die for two months and alive on December? Reasons are i have to submit tons of assignments on October and my finals is on the end of October till mid November. AND after that i can rest my ass on the comfy couch and rotting like a smelly fish. I suppose to have test this weekend,but thanks to whoever he/she was that change the schedule and make it to 20 sumting of October. Fuhhh..!! Boleh balik this week. If the test is on this weekend, meaning i cannot go home this week and also next week because Mass Commers have this Hari Raya open house on the 18th. Ermm.. I have had lots and lots and LOOTTSSS of assignments, mayynnn..!! Advertisement, press relaese, crime news, public speaking (persuasive), Human Comm (transsexual), Mass Media (Books) and i have to study for my finals too...! I can go all stress. I cudnt even remember when the last time i comb my hair and look in a mirror. I cant even think of shaving and threading. I am praactically forgetting everything about sex, too. Hehe. I used to be good at it, but im a sucker for it now, since I had missed the practise often. Joke, people. I missed hanging out with him. Nak jumpe bf pon dah takde masa dah pon. So,this week I am so gonna settle my assignments and I neeeeed to go to the hairsalon to highlight my hair. At least I plan to reward myself for something I enjoy.
Mmmuaahhxx!

It is just another fantasy that I'm dealing with...?? Well, probably..

Kenapa-lah??

Why is this world is two timing a people like me....??Why do us always ignore our secaond, third chance..? Why does people always make a wrong decision..? Why does people always wants more than better..? Why do I want more than once? Why do I always end up doing a wrong thing when I always realise that it was the best for me..? Why do I cry for nothing? Why am i being a easy lover? Why am i doing this to myself? Why am I thinking about it so much? Why am i starting to thing about this matter, again..? God, PLEASE HELP!!PLEASE..!

i love u

I love him, only him....

Please, please, please don distract me.

I hate of dramas and i hate of getiing hurt.

I don't want to hurt u baby, I try my very best.

Easy or Hard??

Have u ever tought of getting back to where you were? At this point, i really reeally feel of going back to where I was. Not most of the time, but sometimes. It suddenly popped out from my brain, and my heart feels that I've been making a wrong decision of choosing 'this' as my lifetime. But, im scared if what I've been doing now is just a waste of time. And what I choose as a 'new' to me is giving me a bad baaaadddd feedback. See, I am so confuse. Sometimes, i reaaly feel of staying in a shell without anything or anyone with me. Just me and stones and rocks. Will be much, much easier I guess. I dont have to think whats good and wahts bed fer me and my life. The way I live, according to me. I don't have to sit and carries 'dilemma issues' with me and 'insecure issues' around me. To tell u, I am easy. Easy with people and easy with any agendas. And that is waht i dont really admire whats god has invented the inside ME. Why? Cause people tend to hurt your feeling easier and tot that you are okay with it but actually you're dying swearing inside. It's hard to be EASY. Same goes to realtionship. When you are easy, u are EASY to make stupid decisions and stupid moves that may hurt your spouse and they can EASILY left u hanging, alone. Sometimes, I was thinking of doing what i feel of doing, without thinking and without any care of people's feeling, but I am not that immature to do so. I care for whom i loves and I may do anyhing for them. All i need is sacrification and patient. For all I know, the 'new' thing fer me is not gonna happen. I wont let my people lose hope on me. I love u. To my boyfriend : Thankss baby fer understand the whole lots of me. Thanks for being a sweetheart. I love you.


much, much love!!