I feel so much filthy because....

i am cramped, my period is late, and I am full of shits to think of. I have 3 papers to sit on, that is on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Trust me, they are all killer one. My pockets are dried like drought. And I am still smiling. I left rm2 in my pocket and I don't know when daddy wants to bank in some notes. Lastly, I am hoping and praying that 'someone' should see the real world and should quit immediately. It is unhealthy, and I don't like it. Oh, gawd.. Give me some life. I need it, badly. Please.

Love is in the air..foes are on top of me.

If this what they call life, then I am quitting. I am tired, and I am done being an unpaid actor, done with giving multiple chances, and also done with letting myself feel good when I know it isn't. I don't wanna be stupid by letting everything step on my head as if I don't have any piece of feelings build in me. I am done with 'give and take' or 'karma strikes' issues because to me, it was all bullshits and a bunch of motherfuckers. Because, whatever bitches and fuckers did to me, I don't see anything bad goes to them. Now u tell me why I should believe in those myths? I'm not an avenger person. But, I have my own limit of being good, and when something gets to my nerves many times, I guess I should be doing something, and I had done that. It doesnt really matter me most if he/she wants to hate me, because I don't give any fucks to her/him. You know what I am capable of. U mess with me, u gonna get it to, it just that I am good at faking, and U won't smell me, even if I'm just an inch away from you. I'm not saying this or doing this because of I hate him/her, but I guess he/she deserves it, and I am now smiling widely and laught histerically and my heart is as ease as long island ice tea. But, it doesn't ends here. There are still never ending stories that circulates in my mind. Lots, and lots of things. I had settled 2 issues in a week, but there are few, queing waiting for its turn. Worry not, I can manage it own my own. After all, I have my bounzers on my left and right, and I am sure I am well defence. I am not scared if he/she wants to say shits on my face or to show his/her middle finger right on top of my nose, because I can do it too. Being bad is the winner. tata!

Love main masak-masak dgn ayah.

Sambal ikan

Sayur kacang panjang goreng

kuah lemak udang cili api (udang menyorok)

Today, I played masak2 with daddy. I helped him for kenduri today. Hehe. I had fun with him in the kitchen. I was laughing my ass out while cooking with him. He acted like Chef Wan's and the pondan - ish characters. I had soo much fun! I love you, father!!!!!!!

U Are 25th!!!!

Birthday Dude!

I would like to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY COUSIN, ALONG! Hahaha. You are the best one. Happy 25th! Live life and god bless you! <3

Goodbye, my friend. In loving memories.

I don't feel the world is fair enough, especially when it comes to you and people that you love. I had fun, laughed my ass out with him today, and the next day, he left me --FOREVER. Without saying goodbye or with the proper 'leaving', he left me just like that, leaving his memories, laughters, and guilt for myself. The time is so effing short, I still leaving in a situation of disbelieve. I still can't believe that he just left me yesterday. He died yesterday, and I was not sure wether is it my halucination, or I have to step back to reality world?

I woke up yesterday, and so had so many phone calls saying that my uncle passed away. I was shocked and froze, thinking to cry or to shout? I hung up, and called daddy afterwards. Daddy said its true, and I went home. Shocked, I am still hoping that It wasnt true. But, I am not in wonderland or lalaland where everything has to be fairy and cheerful. I am in a real world, fulls of obstacles and dirt, and sarcasm. I have to accept it with open heart and open hand.

Dear Bob,
u noe you are the best uncle ever in my life. Although you are 30's, U doesnt act like it. I am so sorry cause I never respect u as my uncle, but as my close friend. A close friend that can chill with me, the one tat I can depend on, and the one that I come to if I am sad, just to get a lilltle laughters from you. You know it well how to make me smile and laught. I miss the foughts that we had, cursing, and swearing, are just the way we bonded. Your birthday is in one month time, and I still remember you said you want to treat us satay on your birthday. I remembered few weeks back, I fought with you about your phone because u bought like mine and same color. I remembered our times at catering. We used to fought like eveerrrydayyy and everrrrytime in a day! We always cari pasal with you, and leaving you withoput any back up. But, I know U like it so much. I know you loved us and I am sure you had fun with us(me n along). Now, the memories remain in my soul, and I will definitely misses you, every bits of it. Good bye my friend. I never said this but, i love you! May you rest in peace. Kirim salam kat nenek and atok.

(March 27 1977 - 18 Feb 2009)

Al-Fatihah.

Scored a double ace with King.

I am so oily, filthy, sweaty, slimy, stinky, and twisted. Blame the hot like-in-a-400 celcius-oven sunny-hot weather! With the hot weather, I tend to get easily sweat. Meaning, it burned some cals and fats, and with that, I get hungrieer all the time today, so end up eating like a pig again. I was planning to bunk PR class, but since friends persuaded me to go, so I went. Mengantok terruk punya, but I kinda like PR class. Such a great dessert for today's classes.

Tomorrow's gonna be so free for me..! And I gotta be a amateur photographer for le boyfriend. Nothing is free M. :)

Crazy frog are frogging in mine.

While waiting for my BEL class at 230pm, I decided to post som craps in my blog. Then, again, I posted some of my all time indulgence :-

skyy vodka

swensen's

red skittles

plain margarita

burgers

chili's

sneakers bar

Don't say I'm fat, cause I'm not. I am healthy. Although items above are so so not healthy, but it is the most helathier one to me. With enough glucose, calcium, carbs, some fats, n wat so ever ingredients, i found my self haappy. If i get the chance to choose either HOT SEX or these 'indulgences', I would choose them. Try.

Valentines are not for me.

Happy Valentine's Day to everyone out there.
I was'nt celebrating it. Just went out for lunch with mum n dad at curve n ikea.
Asik makaaan je arini.
But i did not enjoy the food because I could not eat.
Sakit perut lagi.

*SIGH*

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Finally I am in my own room!! Whooot! Whoot! Last week was doomed and cranky. Thanks bf, for bringing me to places. Love u! I am sick like a bitch, and I need some attention. And i found it kinda pest. I dunno what i'd ate, tapi i am having food poisoning. I am relieved for handed in my grpahic asgnmts and my ctu. Pheww. Now, I am concentrating on my 'music band', and my 'photo gallery'. Pray for it darling.

Fotocamp was FUNCK.

Hello.

Weekend was at first, bored but at the end of the day, it was lots of fun! I managed to explore something new and trust me, it was interesting, and I am kinda pro at it already. Hehe. But the worse part was I had to spend my weekend in Melaka Uitm! So fucked shyte.

My days are getting better and I am loving it and living it with a HUGE smile on my face. I guess my fringe IS really giving me a good luck. But, still im unlucky with money. I am trying to lose weight, but today i ate like a pig. 3 dishes for an hour. And a guy told me I eat a lot with damn in the text. See how pig i am? Whatever lah. Tgh happy kotttt. Rather be happy than crying and gloomy all the way kan..

I have news test tomoro. PR subject. I have to memorise everything in the news, and rosselyn lahar wil ask wats in the news and few killer questions. Fuck, again!!! So, goodnight bitches!