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I really don't know what to write,because nothings are in my mind. But, since my keling bf ask me to, well i guess i just have to blurt anything. Here goes.

Ummm, hye my name is Diana. Have a BF, nama Muhsin.
Esok saya nak keluar berpacaran dengan dia. Tetapi tak tahu kemana.
Mungkin meronda ronda di sekitar ibu kota. Tapi tidak banyak aktiviti yang akan dilakukan kerana wang bulanan sudah habis digunakan untuk bil-bil yang mengusutkan otak dan mengeringkan pocket. Tetapi, tidak mengapa sebab itu adalh tanggungjawab seorang pengguna sebelum nama saya disenarai hitamkan.

Esok, adalah hari yang saya akan keluar dengan teman lelaki saya setelah beberapa minngu tak jumpa dia sebab dia ada some shits for uitm. Atau dalam bahasa melayu, ada sedikit tahi untuk uitm. Saya sangat teruja untuk berjumpa dengan dia sebab saya rindu dia sangat-sangat. Tak sabar nak tengok kulit dia yang macam keling atau lebih hot dipanngil sun tanning. Tapi takpe, saya boleh create nama keling dia, Ramasamy.

Itu sahaja untuk hari ini. Esok saya post kan lagi, tetapi dalam bahasa yang senang difahami oleh semua pembaca. Terima kaasih, selamat malam.

:)

To Muhsin : u just made me sounded like an idiot. Grrrr! Happy now???????

survey

1st : What's your name?
Diana
2nd : How old are you?
19 years old.
3rd : What are the electronic devices you cannot live without?
My purple handphone and radio.
4th : Are you amazing?
u think so?
5th : What is the brand of the phone you are using?
Sony Ericsson
6th : What colour is your phone?
I said purple earlier.
7th : Have you slept in school before?
Yes, many times. Sick, it seems
8th : How many hours do you go online in a day?
As same as my sleeping hours.
9th : How would you describe yourself?
Cute :p
10th : What's your favourite topic to talk about?
Shoeeeessssss!!!!
11th : Which teacher do you like?
U mean lecturers??errr NONE!
12th : Who do you think is the most handsome in your class?
Epulllll…
13th : Who are you currently aiming on?
One and only, Josh Hartnett
14th : Do you know a lot of your siblings' secrets?
I don’t have any sibling.
15th : How do you rate your siblings?
Infinity 0
16th : Is your sibling gorgeous?
Yes I am. Heeeee
17th : Do you judge people?
Errrmm nope.
18th : Do you run?
Yeah BABY..!!
19th : Are you lazy to tag people?
A AH.
20th : Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
Ewan.
21st : What's 2+2?
4 la.
22nd : Who's your idol?
Daddy Z!
23rd : Are you a monster?
Yeshhhh. Revenge is the winner.
24th : Do you play with Barbie dolls?
When I was younger.
25th : What was the last movie you watched?
Madagascar 2. I looooove Gloria the hippo.!!
26th : What do you think about your English?
Biasa jeeee.
27th : What do you think about your Malay Language?
Biase jee gakkk
28th : Who do you hate?
Bimbossss.
29th : Do you love yourself?
Yeah, I wanna marry her.
30th : Blurt out five random words.
Shoes, handbags, boyfriend, frens, red, hair, handphone, camera.bla bla.

Maddess!!

please, Ma. I need it. Tapi bukanlah Jimmy Choo nie. Topshop punye pon ok gak kan Ma. Love u.

Giler

It's crazy when I posted 3 posts a day! Because I was inspired and I have nothing to do in other hand. Not lifeless nor lame, but imspired to write coz i thinkk a lot today and i delivers it by my writing. So i can see myself as a bright journalist, or a mag editor!! I wanna be a journalist when im done with my studies which gonna take for about 4 years more. Danggggg nigga'. Bile yang aku nak kahwinnn nyeeee???

Kahwin? I wanna marry early. I'd been persuaded by Sue to marry early. Sumpah kau buat aku nak mengawan je Sue. Ok, reality. I wanna marry at 24y/o, have kids at 26y/o. Its just one of my planning lists. Guy that i wanna marry with?? Stabile with financial, and loyal to me. As i grew older, I dont look at the appearance much. Friend told me once 'u dont have to look at the appearance in order to be happy, its the heart that will lead u to happiness'. I bet he's true. U can't expeect Josh Hartnett or Chuck Bass to love u back even if u love them, kann? It cud be Frankenstein or Joker taht will love u eternity.

I don need a fancy house, lavish lifestyle, filthy rich man, superhot cars, or drop dead gorgeous man to be my spouse. All i need is the care, love, happiness and loyalty. That matters me the most. I get bored easily when it comes to relationship. My fren Eka n Sheeda says that too. But this time, I wont. I love the ride and the suprises that awaits me.

Right here, right now, no way hozayyyyyy any guys who wanna get themselves in my jeans. Because, Im taken. Pretty happy now, and he makes me feel prettier. ahaha. Pretty awesome guy, with pretty bods. Damn, i have to have 6 pax in order to challenge him. Kan baby??
hehehe. Looooove angkat2! dah la dah tak inspired dah.Bye

i love u Ayah

i just need my daddy. I miss him badly. Can't wait for this thursday. Damn it! I cant live with my mum for a very long period of time. She's not like my dad who treated me like a baby. Not a teenager. I love u, dad... and mum..

That's that

I may be such a big liar if I say I dont miss him. Yeah, I did. I missed him. We went through shits, thicks and thin. We cried and joy together. We 'were', I suppose. Things are different and I am here with different status and different walls surrounding me with different air that I am breathing now. And i know that I have to live in the present world, not my past.

Honestly, Its hard to forget what we had done together for nearly 3 years even I have someone who i love most beside me. But, still, at times It triggers me. Once said 'it takes a minute to love someone, but forever to forget them'. It's not really forever, but it occurs when you are alone, and doing nothing, sitting on your couch, and thinking. Right?

You guys must be thinking that, I still cant forget my past. Wrong! But it's a normal shits where all normal ppl would thought of. Honestly, Im not regretting about the break up. I'm not. Why would I feel regret of it? I have someone who care for me now. And someone who love me. I just have to indulge every bits of it.

I know it is too early for me to say things like 'he's the one for me', 'we are gona get married together', or any happily-ever-after stories. But, it cerain sense, I know that this life is about trying and experience things that sometimes will lead u to places that u never expect to be. In my case,yes, I know its early for me to get in a relationship with him, but some ways are better be soon. like 'the sooner, the better'. If things does not work out, at least Im glad for having someone who atleast care for me in a way, and its a lesson for me to master in.

I have this feeling that my relationship with him is not gonna be forever. It just my feeling that I have to fight with. Its sucks to feel that when the person is someone that you are starting to love. Been there done that. Iknow Im not a good girlfriend who follows everyhting that her partner say. I always say No to him. And everyhting has to be in my way. And, I know i dont really show my love to him besides saying I love you. It's me. Deep down, I love him. I'm just scared that he might get bored with my attitude. It's not that i dont try to change, I did. But, it just dont seem to work out. Thats about me that u have to know.

Sue said that he is one patient guy. I bet he is. Especially when things get hard at the middle of my unstabilised mind. When words may be hurtful. Like, i cursed and I said something unpleasant at him. And it sucks. Im sorry. Despite that he says OK in whatever I said, he cares for me. I love him, for that.

I miss him. Badly. I need you. Good luck with ur rugby. Have fun in Perak.

lay zee.

Hello.

Yesterday was the hell of my layyyyy-zeee day. I didnt bathe for a day untill cousin had to called me and forced me to bathe because we are going out to Ampang for Suzi and gave something to someone. So, i bathed, finally.

Cousin arrived, and we went Ampang. At first we did not wanna go Suzi because other cousin wanted to go shisha at Damai. But,then again, it was so freeking pack and we had to go Suzi. No choice. I was not in my eating mood, so i ordered Cheese Naan and Teh Ais. I was so lazy to chill, and i felt sleepy there. I just wanted to go home.

Then, cousins friend joined us out of nowhere. So lagi lama la dorg lepak. I was busy talking with my other cousin untill we get bored with each other. We were talking about sex drives and he said he is a brilliant driver and rider. Whatever, dude.

It's nearly 1230am and they were still gossiping and laughing. Nak usha mamat nie, tapi dah ade awek lak. Kang pelik awek die. Hehehe. So,i showed this Didie is boring face, and asked my cousin to leave the hell out of here. by 1.00am we left. We passed Beach Club and they wanted to go there. I dont want to cuz i was just wearing my pants and my tshirt.

Reached home nearly 2am and i missed someone. And headache says goodnight to me.

For S

For the one that i used to loved. (u know who you are).

I just cannot accept the shits where u told me that I have change to a bad person after the fights that we had. So, u think Im a good or a better person with u? And without you, I cant breath on my own and fall after 2 3 steps? Honestly, Im not. I am still standing still, behaving like my behavior and enjoying the smiles and the fun, coz i deserve to. Just because I went to sum places and do shits, and u starting to judge me..? Dude, does not make sense ok. I am like this before u know me, and when we were together. I use to do those shits. Remember? And u were cool about it. And now, that I am not with u anymore u starting to call me a spoil girl? And saying that I will be a bitch one day which my whole interest is fuck and go???? U have no right to say that. Time suka, tak kesah, time gado, baru nak ungkit. I found it rather funny. I told u what i did, where i go, as a friend. Not as a couple. So, as a friend, I dont need the comment or an advice, or any critics. And as a friend, U shuold just listen, not commenting or behaving me, like a bf's job. Im soory. But, im really hurt of your words. Coming that from u, the one that i could trust, its hurting. Just take care of yourself, dont be a motherfucker or a bastard. And I am still alive without you here with me.

over baby!!!!!

finalls are finally OVER people. Woohooo..! It's time to ROTTING THE HELL OUT OF YOURSELF!

By means, enjoy like how mummy taught you. Spend craze nights, craze events, craze attitudes!

Did u see the smoke going up? And the bottles lying on the floor with half dead ppl holding it?

That is what Im talking about.

Bonnie & Clyde

For all i am living now, i live in insecurity with my relationship. It must be weird for a girlfriend to have such thinking towards her boyfriend. Well that is the weird part of me as a girl. Because I will never trust any of the guys that I had dated or I am dating now. Never trust boys, it seems. I heard lots of bad stuff about him before we even dating. Before I even know him. And the day I met him we went to some club I was thinking that this guy has lots of girls to maintain. And there's this part where I think I felt appreciated was when he took a really good care of me. I cried, I mumbled, I was out of control, but he was just there, accepting it, patiently.

Then, we were great after the hangover night. We talked, we hanged out, and we text. We were just so great. At first, I wasn't thinking that, that was for real. Maybe he just make me as his fling. But as days goes by, I have this feeling that he has this hots for me. This feeling that I know and I can feel. Although he may be some guys that gilrs dont wanna take as her bf kinda behavior, but i can feel that he is different to me. The way he treated me, its just so sweet and I am loving it. I know that I am special to him. He did not hide anything from me. Before I heard some shits from others, he told me shits that he had done with everything. Thank god that Im not a judmental person.

Now, as we are dating, I realise that no matter how he is, I just love him. He make me happy and he stands for me. He is being a patient guy with me. I may be suck as a girlfriend, and pest, but he just take it and accept me. I hope this is forever. I dont care what people wanna say, just fuck their balls. He is my man, and nobody can say anything. All i hope was to be happy, again. Happy with the relationship, and happy with everything. Its still too early to say that he is FOREVER because we are still a seed. It takes time for a flower to bloom. With enough soil, sun, and water, the flower will bloom, beautifully for the rest of its time. I LOVE YOU, BABY.

bye2 2006, hello 2008

Millions of shits happens on November. Like?? Got drunk few times, yes, few times, not once. Drunk 2 times in a week, is not very pleasant. Coz when it happen, i tend to cry for shits and anger controlled me. I tend to hurt ppl's feeling and make my bf (THEN) worried. I am sincerely telling u this that i am starting to hate alcohol. Cause of alcohol,it made me end my nearly 3 years of relationship over 4 hours of drinking session with friends, at the beach. I am sad and I am regretting on that particular day. I dont know that it will bring such impact on me and my ex-spouse. I wasnt thinking well, when i did it, and, when i told him that i was drunk last night and hangover today morning. fuckss. Now, things has changed. I hope this time with 'someone' is for real and i hope that we both are not faking it. No more lies, no more drama, no more pain. But, to tell u, honestly, i am missing the moments i had with you. But, been there done that. Good things are not forever, bad things will not gonna last longer. Let this year past slow, cant wait for the totally new me on December right up to 2009. btw, i cut my hair short just for a change. New hair, new life. Bye2 2006. Hello NOvember 2008.

REGRET

i am regretting every bits of it.... SO STUPID!