Lurveee affairs.

YEAH TO U TOO, AND DO I LOOK LIKE I FUCKING CARE?

NOOOO!!!!

i may be BITCH to you, but I did that for a reason.

♥

Pr...Journalism....Sux my world!

I am not well functioned today. Perhaps, regarding my upcoming commit suicide papers. That is Public Relations and Journalism. Gosshhh! It's kinda lunatic if I have to read the whole 700pages of my PR book and another hundredss pages of my Joirnalism notes. Crazy, doesn't it? I was finding for past years, but I couldn't find for the web site. I did tried, but nithing came out except for the huge UITM EXAM PAPERS texts. Susah nyaaaa nak senangkan idup tau.

Oh yeah, pls pray for me!

Garfield..i love you.

I misses Garfieled. Garfield is my all time favourite cartoon character, before Elmo. When I was younger, probably in my primary years, I used to owned lots and lots of garfield stuffs. From sandal, to clothes, cap, stationeries, bags, water bottle, pendek kata I owned everything that has got to do with garfield. Now, since I grew older, I still have some small small stuffs such garfield's bear, few posters, and files. Dulu ade cartoon garfield kan, now dah takde. I love you big fat orange cat!!!!!!!!!! Mmmuuaaaahhhh.!

Melakakakaak

Dammnn it's Sunday, and I have to go back to MELAKA kejap lagi.. Sigh. This time, I will bring my laptop along, to make it less bored. hehe. Tapi takde internet connection laa. :( But fret not, didie, esok (MOnday) balik klg balik. Hehehehe.


Mmmuaahhh..!!!!!

Faces again...

sheeda

shazia

suren

hani

jamm

jimmy

Teresa Ann

Zewl

I MISSS YOU BITCHESSSS!!!!!!

No titile.

Hello, I'm Didie.

im a stubborn chick.

i have fat cheeks.

im broke.

i have a happy n cool parents.

a best friend.

a cute cat.

and a suck CORRELATIONAL!

BYE!

p/s : to whoever you are, ITS NOT YOUR PROBLEM. THANKS.

music maniaaa

I am so emotional today. Not because of my exams going on this month, but just emotional. Maybe i'm getting my period too soon. Or maybe something just crossed my mind. I don't know either. Or maybe I misses someone? Or maybe I am planning somethign that is real hard to do so, a plan that either way, i lose. Gain nothing, but sadness and hatred. So, today I listened to a song by Pitbull and Frankie J entitled 'Tell Me'. Kinda like that song, but has nothing to do with me, but whatever, who the hell care?

I am so broke, like a reeally big volcano hole exist in my pocket. I can't even buy a rm5 top up pon ok.. Sumpah miskin nie. Rasa cam nak kerja jer. I need a new perfume, cuz i am bored with all perfumes that I owned. I am now looking for Daisy by Marc Jacob, or Fascinate by Ferragamo. Just taht 2. And I am back on track. I need a shopping therapy after my finals.

I need to quit everything, a week after my final. EVERYTHINGGGG!!! ciggies, and boosts. I neeed to quit la seriuosly. Sampai bila nak camni kan? hehe. So, yeahhh.

*sometimes things are better left unsaid....keep it in urself..."

.........................

I guess, this is the right time.

A good fren of mine, let me just call him A says to me :

"Make it happen, didie.
Because u have had enough.
And u don't deserve a treat like that.
I know u well, this is not you"

sure do, thanks.

Friendsss, they come, they go.

Sometimes, when you are alone, u tend to realised what u had done for past weeks, and days, and months, and years. Weather it's a good noble one, or a dark devilish one. You may or may not realised that it was actually affects you and ur surroundings, don't really matter if it's invisible or right on your face. Indirectly, u felt guilty about it, but ignored it few seconds later. I guess that is the specialities in human beings. Tend to care of certain things, and wonder, and tend to ignore it less than a minute.
All these weeks were such a drama to me. Friends who really care of me, friends who were just pretend to care, friends who acted like a goo d friend out of sudden, and friends who uses a friend. All plastics and lies are breezing thru the air then..and even now. I know how it feels like to be dumped, and to be killed silently. But, it wont happen without a reason. All shits and dirts happened for a reason, and the reason was u deserved to have it.
I admit that I am not such a friend who can depend on, but for certain friends who knows me now and then trusted me, and I am so much glad of that. I don't need you pretenders to be my friend because u dont deserve me. I guess this is what they called life, where lies, and backstabs, circulates around you.
U don't have to act like you care of me, now. I understand it already and I finally seen the thru colors of yours. So colourfull, yet so dull. Go to your own world, I wont interrupt no more. But, all i can say is, U were such a nice and dependable friend, then. I dont understand how u manage to pull it back oppositely. Deep down, I still miss you. But, i guess u dun care about it already. I guess i should just be quite, and back off, for my own happiness.

I appreciated it a lot, 'friend'.
Thanks for the memories.

lost n still cudnt find,

Dear friends,

I am missing you badly. Where have u gone? We used to be sooo close back then, and suddenly you were just invisible and made your way out of mine...? I know, shit happens between us, and I'm sure we already come clean on those issues, right? So, y are u still avoiding me?
I tried to call you, texts u, and nothing came in reply. I am sad, and I think all the memories went down the drain. Memories are good, but if this is wat memories looks like, then I think I wanna kill memories. All those times we had together, were just all good and tastes as sweet as lollipops, and shines as bright as the fireworks. But, where are you now? i Miss u badly. I know you cant be busy because you always have the time for me in any circumtances. So, if u read this please text me or call me. Im still using my old number.

This is for : N, S, D, Y. You know who u are.

berdua lebuh baik

My final is next week, and I guess i have to really behave, and be a good human. I dont wanna repeat those days i had during my finals. Been drunk on exam's nite. That was bad, and totally harmful. I need to study, and I wanna score 3 pointer and above again. I dont wanna repeat any paper because it's killing half of my nerves. I also think that I have to change my attitude. I am a hot headed, stubborn, and my mood swing can change every 2 seconds. I guess that's bad and I need to dump it in another world. Show me ways honeyy!!
Today, I went out with my friends and I watched fast n furious, for the 2nd time. Ugh. Kwn punye pasal aku ikut je lah. Then a good fren of mine wanted to belanja me a glass of sex on the beach, but I refused to. Gila kau, dah la aku drive sorg besides I had it already on Friday. I think I need to lay low, and face the world in a good manner. Okkk, I guess so.

*sayang, I miss you.

Its over, yeah, over!

Finally I am done with every shits of assignments. Alhamdulillah for that. I never thought I can manage it, but suprisingly I am a superwoman! With all the efforts and forced I managed to do so. I can say this week was the toughest one for me. From studies, to relationship, friends, families and few dilemma issues. I told u, that was hard. At certain point of that time, I felt like quitting, and move on to another phases. But by avoiding it, I shall picture myself as a sore loser. So, eventhough I cried every night, I still play with my mind that those are just temporary and will end soon. So, again I am setting it and living it. This happen because I was stress with assignments and few issues that surrounded me. Hell for that.

I am learning something from my observation these few days.

1) do not trust boys who u think u can depend on. Cuz they might use u for granted.
2) Move on, look at the right side.
3) Think positively. Do not have any evil thoughts, or this will continue and harm u.
4) Another observation, I am gonna make it real, bcuz y wait?