Son-shine.

I hate this weeeeek. Where I am being hormonal, and acted like a demented crazy mother of a bitch. I'd cried few times for some stupid stuff, hurt few people that I love most, been a cold hearted human, and also a fuckingly lazy lady. So unpleasant! Thank god, this weekend I did something, well practically I actually went out from my place and watched movie with fren. Phew. I am tired of studying especially in Melaka, where all the excitements are buried in hell hole.The same routine everyday, same behaviors, same unhealthy afternoon, evening, and night, save food, save surroundings, and lots of same shits. Thanks to some lovely people as my wing men.

As all I'd learned, well I think its time for me to actually move on, live my life, dont give a fuck bout certain someone and just be normal. In order to forget the past, i have to create a new future, and burn down the memories. Right, as easy as i said this,it's tougher than it sounds. Fuck it, i dont give a multi label anymore.

It's funny when I have to wait and hold againts it, which I knew from day one that it's just a hopeless hope that i've been craving for. It's stupid and Clever-less. Well I guess it's true when ppl said that they are happy with someone they dont seem to care less, trust me, they are cheating themselves. It's hurting when you start cheating yourself, and the end of the day, you are just a pity person that finds for a reason to make yourself comfortable and acting like THE nost happiest person on earth with a so-called-PERFECT partner, "perfect" relationship, where deep down you just cant seem to get rid of a certain someone that you love the most. Im sorry, but I think that person is coward to grab what he really wants. All i can say is, just try it, and if its work, then find a way to be happy again. I'm not waiting for anything, just living my life with the one that i love.

You know who you are, I love you, always have, always will.